Episode 103: “Honey lately, I’ve been way down/ Say Hello and Wave Goodbye Medley”
Well, it has been a while since I have posted anything on my blog…a long, long time. I guess I should update you on my situation right now. Right now, I am struggling to find a job in the entertainment industry, and in any industry for that matter. I really don’t know what I am doing wrong, maybe there is something I could change, I don’t know. I just know that now I have to move up to Maryland with my parents for a bit to sort everything out. The move is not going to be easy. Saying goodbye to people is not easy, but there is one girl it was so hard to tell about the move, someone that I have tremendous difficulty saying goodbye to. She is the hardest person to say goodbye to because she has impacted my life in ways you can’t even imagine. She opened me up, and got me outside for a while. Because of her I really did not want to stay inside so much. Sure we would go to the movies, because that is a vice we both share, but we were at least not in our rooms on the computer.
I fell for this girl, she was the most incredible woman I have met in years, but it wasn’t in the cards. I don’t know what it was about her, but she was so striking and explosive that I was so afraid to tell her how I felt for fear of being blasted into another dimension. Okay, I am sounding stupid now. What I am getting at is that this girl is so special to me, because I get her, and surprisingly she gets me somehow. I feel this connection, and I have told her things most people don’t know about me. She has become a very close friend, and I am happy with that. I couldn't ask for anything more. So as the days go by, and I get closer to my moving date, I become increasingly okay with the move. It was what she said to me one night “Don’t be sad about it now, because you are going to miss all of the happy memories that are being made right now. You’re not going to enjoy your last moments with the people you love, and that is sad.” In a nutshell, that is what she said. After she said that, I began breathing normally, I stopped hyperventilating, and began writing ideas more.
So I wonder if saying goodbye is even appropriate. Maybe it is something my friends’ late mom said to me one day, “It’s not goodbye, It’s see you later.” So maybe see you later would be better?
