Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Blog Episode 9: Weight of the World


When I was a young kid, my mom was driving me to Austin. I felt like the luckiest kid on earth! Good food, happy times, and many good laughs. It got to be midnight by the time we left the great city. Looking out the window, watching the moving scenery, something struck me. A thought moved through my mind and got me to think what some would consider a required thought at my age: The Future.

This thought though, was not what people wanted me to think…I’m rambling aren’t I? This is why it is hard for me to sell an idea. Anyway, I saw a skyscraper, which blew my mind. I’ve seen them before, but this was massive! Lights and all, it was a sight to see, lighting all of the city of Austin it seemed. But right next to it, was a giant crane, preparing the world for yet another skyscraper. I glanced down before the impending crossing of the bridge blocked my view, and saw the bulldozers that were meant to tear the whole ground apart. Digging as far into the earth as possible to support this beast of industry. I asked myself as I sipped my Dr. Pepper: “How much can the earth take?” and “what effect will this new birth of stone and glass have on the weight of the world?

Now I know, there is gravity, and I understand the physics and mechanics of the world, but I just wondered how much can we build and destroy, and what effect will it have on our natural foundation? These questions popped in my head again recently. How much can you take? When you love someone and care about them deeply, how much can you take? I’ve got two friends who I love with all my heart, and would die for, but they are going through hell right now. One I have known most of my life, and one I feel like I have known an equal length of time. Right now, both of them are becoming annoyed and frustrated with everyone. It hurts me when they don’t want to talk and don’t care. It hurts, and no matter how bad it feels, I can’t and wont walk away, because I love them both so deeply. One of them I feel I that I had complicated and hurt our friendship with the thought of love. For that, I apologize from here to the ends of the earth, and I hope things can be the way they were. However, I am not sorry for feeling how I feel. I am her friend first, and till the end.

I asked the questions about how much the earth can take? Well, it must be able to take as much as I or anyone else. It went through the wind, the rain, the snow, and all the hell Texas weather has to offer, and the tall mountains of man-made steel monsters are still kicking. No matter how much we have dug into the earth, and tore it all to pieces, the earth is still here. It is still offering its bounty to us. So I guess in a nutshell, I am still here for you, for both of you. Love will always be here for both of you, no matter what hell comes through the gates, I will still be here for you.

I guess cause I am cool like that :-P

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